its been too long for me

It has been too long for me not to see my mom. its been 6 months today, 27 weeks, 181 days since I last saw you. I miss you like crazy. My life with out my mom is just so lonely no one to call and hear her voice, no number to call her, and no one to answer my questions about cooking. (okay there are people i can call about that but not my mommy. I've been reading this book and i used to take everything I have and had for granted but now reading what she went threw i cant take anything for granted its a wonderfull book just to know what was going through her mind when she got abducted.


I've been trying to get back into quilting but its super hard because my mom and i used to do it together and thats the super hard part. My mom is still my best friend and will always be my best friend. I never knew i would be nineteen with out my mom so anyone who is reading this if you lost a loved one that you were really close to please comment me and tell me how you guys made it through i feel like my whole life went away because she went away. Im not as happy as i used to i cry alot and im tired trying to keep my mind busy where i dont think about my mom.

Hi everybody again that reads my moms blog.

Hi if you dont know who i am im chris' daughter Lindsey. Im going to keep writing on here so if you read this please tell me because i feel like no one reads our blog. So I'm Lindsey, im 19 years old, and my 2nd year at my college I go to a community college thats close to our house and my mom passed away in January. So the day my mom got in the hospital and the day my mom passed away and went to paradise still haunts me every minute of every day. My relationship with my mom wasn't normal. I thought it was normal but when I saw my friends with their mom's they weren't as close as my mom and I. We took a bunch of cool trips that I loved we went to Hawaii, Mexico, Canada, and New York! But my mom went to London and Ireland with her girlfriends. When they went I was in middle school and I wanted to go with them but I wasn't allowed to so when she was there I was super mad at her. But the last trip my mom and I got to go on was to disneyland. My mom and I did the disney day so we got free tickets YES I SAID FREE!!!! we just had to help out Habitat for Humanity for a few hours. We went to disneyland with my best friend Jorden and her mom Lisel! We had the bestest of best time with each other. When we went to disneyland it was my first time going on a roller coaster.

When i live my life its day to day i dont take anything for granted anymore. I always thought to myself my mom and dad are always going to be there no matter what. Now I think to myself before my dad goes away for work. "Is this going to be the last time I see my dad stable?" Yeah you might be laughing but for what I have gone thru Its hard to stay positive. All my friends tell me all the time I hate my parents but I say I said that about my mom when I was little but they turn out to be your best friend. And now look how much I regret saying all i said to my mom about how she was a bad mom and alot of other things. But now I miss her greatly and she was the best mom because she was my MOMMY! And she raised me into a beautiful young woman mommy you did your job the best with me.

I love my mom alot and i miss her greatly.

-Lindsey <3

Hi everybody its Christine's daughter Lindsey

Hi everbody! It's Chrsitine's daughter Lindsey. I'm sorry to tell all of you this but my mom passed away on January 19th, 2011 at 8:00pm. She suffered from a disease called IPF idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis its scaring of the lungs, and she also had phnumonia. Before everything happend my mom, my best friend, and my bestfriends mom and I went to disneyland. My mom and I did the disney day so we got in free. It was so much fun my mom paid me $5 to go on space mountain. This was my first time going on a roller coaster but the first one we went on that day was the matterhorn. We had a blast. Then my mom started to feel sick when we got back from disneyland. The a couple days later we went to the drs. and they diagnosed her with phnumonia. They started her on the highest doseage of antibiotics they can give to be at home. Then after 2 days of being on the medicine, she passed out at home. From December 16th to January 19th she's been in the hospital. Her oxygen wasn't holding its self. Because when she got phnumonia it made the IPF flair up. They had her on a bipap machine its when air is pushing against you making you breathe it in. Then they moved to life support. They took the life support out on the 19th. And she lasted for 4 hours on 100% oxygen. She was sad to leave all of us on earth. But shes waiting for all of us to meet her there.

And im trying to create an organization to raise money to find a cure of IPF someday. That was moms dream.

Thank you,

Lindsey

WOW How time flies!

I knew it had been a while since I posted anything here. 10 months! Not a lot has changed. My health is still stable. I go back for a another pulmonary function test next month. I am still trying my best to stay positive and have a good attitude. My new slogan is "Find the Sugar!" I'll explain if you're interested.
I still don't have any pictures on my blog because I haven't taken the time to learn how to post them. I don't have a great camera anyway.
I'm going thrift shopping this afternoon. I hope I can find something wonderful. I don't want or need anything specific, but it's still fun to see what "treasure" I uncover.
See you later.

I am not a good blogger! It's been a month again, since I've posted anything and I haven't even tried to add any photos. Of course, if nobody reads it but me, then who cares?
I had a nice Christmas. I hope you did too.
I have been painting and redocorating my kitchen. The color is called Coffee. It looks more like coffee with a lot of cream. Then the accent color will be red, and the "theme" is coffee. I have some great fabric with the perfect colors to make a wall hanging. I also found the perfect kitchen towels at Walmart of all places! Kmart had perfect glass jars with red lids, and taget had a perfect shade of red dinnerware. And the dishes were on sale, only $22.00 for a 16 piece service for 4. Well there are only 4 on our family, but that would never do. I bought 3 sets and I'm thinking of buying one more set because when a few items get broken they won;t be available anymore. You can tell I'm excited about my kitchen decor. What started all this? I got a brand new Whirlpool Duet Washer and Dryer complete with the pedestals for Christmas from my Mother and Father-in-law. They said they wanted me to pick out what I wanted and I picked the red ones. They are beautiful! I walk by them and admire them at least twice a day. I bet I haven't washed more than 3 loads of clothes yet. The kids like them so much they've been doing the laundry! That's fine with me!
Well, the first month of the year is almost half gone already. I think this is going to be a much better year than last year. Last year is done, let's not go back there OK? OK.
Maybe I can actually get some photos and post them. That might make my blog a bit more interesting.
Happy New Year.

Catch up

I figured I'd do a little catch up. The last time I posted, my husband had just been informed he would no longer be working for the auction where he usually gets most of his work, and should pick up his final check on Monday. It was a depressing weekend even though it was Thanksgiving. Later in the week things were cleared up and he was welcomed back. It was all a big misunderstanding. So things are good again. I was beginning to think I was going to need to double up on the Prozac.
I had a repeat CT scan and my lungs don't show a change from last March. That's good news. There is a new drug coming through the FDA right now that should be available in Spring 2010. It is supposed to stop scarring. My problem (IPF) is scarring in the lungs, so if this new drug works for me it will literally be my lifesaver.
I have done almost no Christmas shopping or decorating. I better get moving!

Wow it's been a long time since I've posted. Still not much new though. The economy problems that have hit so many are threatening to hit us too. We'll have to wait and see what happens.